Editing Update

I have finished basic edits on chapters 1-3, and all it's doing is getting me alternately depressed and excited. On one hand I am loving the plots and characters even more. But the more I edit, the lower the word count gets and both chapter two and three are already really short. Not only that, but I'm getting more and more worried about the quality of the actual writing. How am I supposed to show not tell, when I also can't have too much dialogue? And character's thoughts can be confusing...

There are just more don'ts than do's in editing. First draft; anything goes. Now? Rules, rules, rules. And I'm only doing basic edits! (basic edits: sentence construction and flow. Not focusing on grammar or punctuation too much)

I'm also trying to fix plot points, but I'm so close to the story it would be way easier for my betas to tell me if I'm missing anything. I can't remember if I explained something in real life or in the actual story or both! My brain needs to be way more organized but I just always feel like I'm running out of time!

I have to finish at least chapter four and hopefully chapter five as I have testing all week and major studying to do for it. Then I'm busy almost all  next weekend and testing next week as well. I cannot wait until March is over but I have so much to do!

-Jessie